"when people starts talking
and lifes losing hope on sanity
would you keep holding on?
when your dreams were teased
and you werent confident
would you pursue on your dream?
when your world turn dark
when your light left.
and your soul moans for attention
and struggles to break free.
would you just cry and die?"

-cry and die

after i d k how long break, FINALLY
im here blogging again ;D

maybe sofia gets a little bit agitated going to my blog with no updates.
well,maybe some of my readers (if i even have any) were begging to get updates
from me.
haha
i have only one reason and i think its th best i can give everyone.
IM SIMPLY LAZY ;D
oke?
oke,end of story.

lifes been great so far since school reopens (:
and i like it. (:
i've finally touched my books and actually revise my work.

today is youth day.
youth day is a holiday.
it is a holiday for students/youth.
haha,oke im being lame now (:
so first half of the day i spent time at home writing my new song.
whoaaa!
i have enough songs to actually make an album!
with all my covers and songs.
haha, then i shall dedicate the album to everyone who
has been my inspiration throughout this whole album-making journey.
especially to this someone who has always been my main inspiration.

oke,im seriously off-track now.

where was i?

oh jyeaaaa!
the second half of my day, i went to th library to study with Umarrudin.
haha,i seriously forgot how he actually look like
so i started imagining myself stepping into the library and found some guy whom i think looks like him and sat beside him.
i will go all "Hey,sorry i was late."
then th guy would just stare at me and give me th W T F look. ;D
haha!
but anyhoo,its lucky he said he sat near the escalator so when i make my way up.
the moment my head can see the virginal teens thingy, i saw some guy in black shirt who
nods and kindda weves at me,
oke,so thats him ;D
haha,lucky no such incident that i was imagining came true.
tsk.
so we started with our home works.
which actually i didnt actually finish totally as umar would just burst into laughters
all of a sudden! xD
haha,kekek!
then got this i d k, show i think at the library stage there
and they keep on repeat itself repeat itself repeat itself. ;D
and umar went all like "SHUT UP UHH!"
haha, abe nak step fierce! (:
but he kekek!
i d k we could get along so damn well la! ;D

and his stories about school were hilarious like fuggggballs ;D
haha,he got some collection of hilarious teachers, like Ms Chin.
YES!
THAT miss chin who used to teach Jurongville with her "OGAYs"
haha.
thats was nice.

some inside jokes we share like
"THE HANTU-FACED MASK!"
haha, nahh you guys wont get it.
only umar and me get it.
haha.
plus my old friend "WAN HILMI"
haha.
and th "MUKA MAINTAIN UH"
and "makan tayar/tayar masak sambal"
and and and the time he saw some people
who to me "muka mintak kena tampar"
and he went all "who cares? i dont care!"
okeee alot more.

his jokes uhhh, so damn random gila nak mampos gone case nyaaa uhh! ;D

abe everywhere we go kaaan, confirm see people he know one.
oke,not see but meet. ;D
haha, tsk.
some got th wrong idea, w t h?
haha,padahal padahal.
and he keeps on repeating th same thing to them, "kawan laa!" or "what date?! friend la!"
haha.
after library we went to Banquet to have lunch.
because i was starving like pigggg.
he keeps on asking me where to eat and i will just go th loyar buruk way like
"anywhere got food to eat" and all.
haha, then he was like "oke,makan tayar la,potong kecikkecik."
hehhhh!
a n w at first when we sat down at banquet,he said he just want to have a drink ;D
sekali after i buy my usual,Bakmie, he went to buy Chicken Rice only that his chicken is orangey-red. (:
haha, makan punya la cepat! (:
still time makan pun bole buat orang ketawa.
hehhhh. ;D
then we head back home.
we walked home beause we initially thought his house quite near to mine. ;D
padahal jalan berbatu jauh,chehhh!
haha,on th way home met my uncle, bbual skejap ngan diaaa.
and the rest walk home laughing our arses of with each others sillt tactic.

haha,today was niceeeeee! ;D
biasabiasakan selalu yer?


you were the sweetest lullaby that have ever sung me to sleep.
yes,thinking of you were my lullaby each night.
and you were the reason i slept soundly each night.
i m y.

AUTOBOTS,ROLL OUT!

TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN is
FRIGGING AWESOME! (:

anddd watching th movie premier with my girlfriend makes it even more worthwhile& awesome!
haha,worth every word babe! (:

almost throughtout th whole movie me and sofia was constantly screaming

"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"
"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"
"AWESOME!"
"O M G!"
"W T H?!"
"W T F?!"
"WHOA!"

well,actually the whole theater was filled with it la ;D
and loads of scenes which everyone was laughing their arse of! xD
haha.
the AUTOBOTS are superfriggingmarvelouslyawesomestlypowerfullyveryveryreallyreallyfugging AWESOME!
and hilarious.
haha.
and theres two scenes that i actually cried D:

BESTEST MOVIE EVERRRRRRRRRRR! ;D
haha,rate it 10/5 stars! :D

you peoples should watch it ;D
haha,i dont really know how to write a movie review.
just go watch it.
because not only yr money is worth every penny
but, you get to see awesome cars and machines and awesome aircrafts
and military stuffs.
and yoo get to see how robot and humans actually can work together.
oh,and go anti-DECEPTICONS. ;D
haha

i will braggggggg about it fr days.
geez
i still got th TRANSFORMERS atmosphere.
haha,i think i wanna watch it agaaaaaain ;D

i will post pictures on that night sooooon! ;D

WATCH TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN!

TRANSFORMERS 2: REVENGE OF THE FALLEN premier!
22 June 2009!
CATHAY!
SOFIA!
HANNA!

its like being th first to watch it i guess? ;D
we're gonna have our piece of fun.
o m g i love sofia aini ;D
its just the two of us.
*eyebrow go up anddd down.

i watched th trailer like over and over and over and over again.
all in different versions.
geez, that badddd?
haha, anddddddd i even learnt to play the soundtrack, New Divide by Linkin Park
on guitar.
just to add in to th TRANSFORMERS 2 atmosphere! (:
tomorrow night is going to rockkkk!

anddddddddddddddddddd!

I LOVE SOFIA AINI very very very very muchhh!
because she won th tix and thought of me thereafter ;D
awe.

and i love her not only because she gave me a chance to be at a movie premier
especially if its TRANSFORMERS. *screaaaaaaaaams
haha, believe me im not THAT materialistic.
i still love her every other day even if she punches me in th face and say fugg yoooo biatch.
because i know she wont really mean it and deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down inside she desires for me.
okeee, THAT sounds so very wronggg ;D
i mean a best friend like ME to LOVE (:
tsk,whos getting th wrong idea huhh?

so now i feel like hugging her and kissing her and throw her up to th sky and catch her back and spin her around until she throws up! (:

haha! ;D

i love yoo girl. <3

i think im growing fat.
and i hate to say this
because it kindda make me look or sound like anorexic or something?
and its sickkkk.
a n w,after weeks, I BAKED! (:
just another ordinary CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES ;D
haha,will post pictures on my baking afternoon sooooon,i promise (;
plus pinky swear.
andddd, i made a new song anddd a new song cover ;D
this person will be so lucky because this person is my inspiration for my new song.
the song makes me cryyyy D:
haha.
like who wants to know? (:
and a lip sync videooo of Just Dance with my sister.
just another crazayeee sister moment we haddd at some shopping centre.
should i post it uppp? ;D

im feeling hot right now.
eventhough it rained like a few moments agoooo? ;D
no thats hours.
i want to head of to th nearest aircon room ;D
im SO not doing any good for EARTH,well.
im sorry D:

anddd those people who got dear hanna to link or relink,
its done! ;D
i EVEN CHANGED my blogsonggg! ;D

im too good am i? ;D

"she made her way towards me.
my heart skiped a beat.
for i know th look in her eyes.
define: HURT
she stopped inches away from me
and stare deep in my eyes.
she open her mouth and began to speak.
my heart was racing.
"how do you heal a broken heart? because mine just got hurt. BADLY"
what should i say?
how should i answer?
what do i do?
will a shoulder to cry on help?
a listening ear?
cliche shits?
instead i stared back into her eys and said
"how do YOU mend a broken heart? mine's not even healed"
tsk."


lifes frigging awesome! ;D

thank you so very much for not believing in me.
thank you so very much for the efforts and sacrifices you wasted for me.
apparently, you dont need my attention.
and i silently learnt that neither do i need you to be by my side anymore.
but i swear i tried my very best.
i've put my heart and soul.
nothing's gone a miss through out.
but at times,i got sick and tired.
and i gave up.
but sometimes things change and we have to let go.
though letting go isnt always pleasant.
besides,we have got to go our own way someday somehow anyway.
maybe now is the right time.
poeple change.
you change.
i change.
we grew tired fighting and protecting.
we gave up for defending is meaningless.
there aint a reason to why should we carry on.
so, its farewell.
its goodbye.
its the end.
i shall take my leave now.
and throw away all that we've fight as memories.
silent and unspoken.

i lost this valuable ring i had from someone.
im devastated.
maybe theres something behind it all.
but noting can ever replace that ring.
even if yooo get me a BIG HEAVY GOLD RINGD:
i LOVE that ringgg so so so much.

hahaha, i feel so strange without it ;D


i've been thinking.
and my mind is a mess.
life has been confusing.
and i hate it.
because its give me migraines.

i've seriously been in 'IN DEEP THOUGHT' mood.
i've seriously been thinking.

hm...

which was it supposed to be?
a sweet dream?
a nightmare?
its been three nights in a row.
and four dreams.
all of which were dreams of you?
when i wasnt even thinking of you.
when your existence almost depletes from my life.
what are th dream trying to tell me.
or it is me and my wild imaginations.

anyway,they're just dreams right?
nothing more?
another game of th mind.
i wish i could believe that.

because dreaming of you, was sweet.
at th same time painful.
what is happening?

and i miss that someone. D:

finallyyyy, and update huh?
haha, actually i want to update yesterday.
but books are calling me.
so,i got seduced and i read them instead.
im so highly addicted to th House Of Night Series. ;D
fck,im gonna finish the forth book like REAL soon.
daddy,please get me the fifth book (:
HUNTED!HUNTED!HUNTED!
haha,seriously,th book is so superrrr addictive and i cnt believe im saying this
the second best series i've ever read.
call me a geek or anything bu i still find Harry Potter series is THE BOMB! (:
so that means th House of Night series just kicked th Twilight series to third best series i've read.

anyhooo,i find it weird when i read th twilight series
i fell in love with Jacob Black since New Moon.
when almost anyone will drool over Edward Cullen.
haha,oke some just call it weird.
but throughout th entire series,im simply drooling over Jacob Black.
haha,i wish i could fall in love with him.
oh,wait.
i just did! ;D

im talking about books.
whoaaaaa.
jyeaaaa,im a book worm.
so whaaaaaaaaat? (:
im superrrrr handicap without a reading material.
so any book recomendations?

andddd so,in th House of Night Series,
i fell in love withh Erik Night.
haha,his character makes me droooooooooool.
though i still fin Heath's possesive attitude towars Zoeyy id kindda coool,
but still Erik Night. ;D

t m r i have geography remedial.
im only looking forward to it because
one; i can meet SOFIA AINI! ;D like finallyyyyy.
two; brush up humans. (: a little extra effort wont hurt right? haha.
three; i miss schoool.
four; i get to wake up early.haha after daysssss of waking up latee. (:
FIVE! SOFIA IS GONNA HANG OUT AT MY CRIB AFTER THAT! ;D

im superrrrrrrrrrrrrr elateddd oke? (:
haha,i've been looking forward to thaaaaat!

and the weekends!
JOHORE BAHRU HERE I COME! ;D

*jumps around for joyyyy!

because this means, shopshopshopshopingggggggggggggggg! (:
hehhh!
plus i didnt really get a full day chance to indulge myself in th Great Singapore Sale oke? (:

haha,andddd i dont know what to wear.
will Johor be hot? (:
im thinking of wearing my overalls,and its shorts.
so i wont feel that warm.
we shall seee(:

souveneirs anyone? ;D

holidays. ;D
my days are full with COOKING and completeing homeworks.
thennnn th best part of th day, GUITARING (:
think im getting better?

haha,i did a few covers.
but im superrrrrrrrrr embarassed to post it upp.
haha,maybe if i get THAT muchhhh confidence in postinggg them.
though i think some songs i sound like a toad calling for rain (:
haha,but th rest is oke la i guess ;D
my curent addiction?
my babylove! ;D
i just got her!

everyone,this is Echaaaaaaaaaaaaa! (:
isnt she cuteeeee?
haha,this baby is so adorable and will always kindda not literally hug me back when i tell her my problems.
and she just stay still,like she understands what im talking about (:
she make my dayyyy everytime when i ask her to kiss me and she will lick my ear. (:
well,thats because i carried her on my shoulder. like you do to babies
i love her even if she turns grumpy and will stare at me. (:
i know she loves me too,because she never pee or poo on me like she did to others.
hehhhh!

its lateeee (:
im turning in.
toooodlessss! ;D

and people whom ask me to link them up,i have! ;D
so smileeee.

im currently on th phone with Nadhiraaaah darlinggg! (:
rumaaah dia kecoh macam maddd house okeeee?
gilerrrrr.

a n w.
th English Enrichment i attended four days was a bore
plus kindda a waste of time.
tsk.
SO MUCH FOR 'OPERATION DISTINCTION'
when we are treated like as if this is our first year taking english.
tsk.
whats the use of having operation distinction for selected students
when whatever that is taught is like whatever we learn in school. ;D
whats with going through the format and paragraph mann?
aint this operation thingy suppose to equip us with the necessary skills to score a distinction.
and NOT going through format. ;D

well,i got bored of it anyways.
its a good thing theres Jia Hui.
we irritated ourselves and laugh super loudd! ;D

haha,many hilarious incidents happen
like Jia Hui trying to sit without a chair.
and how she comes out with random words like
"Chicken Toast" and "curry puff"
random aye? (:

so literally speaking.
im only starting my holidays next week (:
still,we have to come back to school and do stuffs.

aku is happy currently (:
and i really miss my girlfriends!
ughhh~!

fuggbuggggggg betul! D:

i miss nadhirah.
i miss sofia.
i miss azlin.
i miss nadhilah.
i miss 4D. D:

hehhhh! (:
i think im gonna try new recipes during the holidays.
uhhh,im trying to bake something new instead of cakes cakes cakes and cookies.
uhhhh,maybe i should try baking pies and muffins and cupcakes!
haha. ;D

so maybe this weekend imma try
Shepard's Pie ANDDDDDDD my very own speciality, BROWINES! (:

and waste my midnight hearing misteri jam dua belas,MJ12!
because at times it aint scary pasal sound effect mahal import dari africa.
abe cerita tak da.
lagu nonsense yang main.
tsktsktsk.

okee soo,update soon.
toodles people! (:

and to my helooo beloooo, have hope,faith and believe.
stay&remain strong as you are.
i love you and sayang you and cinta you oke? ;D
im always here for you.
(because it sounds wrong if i say im always by yr side,because i aint yr shadow moreover ghost uhhh!)

end of story.
the end.